I am tough

I love my life, even if I don't get what I want.. Yess~~I love my life..Enjoying my life with my lovely family and fabolous fellas~~ But, inside I am crying and hurting.. Past, I was tough.. I had my extraordinary strength.. But now, I am lost.. I always cry looking for my strength.. I told one of my fella, she was very strong to face it.. We had same problem but not similiar.. Yeahh..~~ If she can did it why not me??Lalala~~ I was missed being 9..No need to think more.. Wake up early in the mornig.. Go to school.. Back from school.. Sleep a while waiting for appearing of sweet evening.. Yess!! Time to play.. Being 17 is so hard but I am really enjoying being 17..Argghh.. Its not the end of the world right.. I am tough,ok..lalala~~Enjoy my life while I can enjoy it..Muahhhh~~

~~Dont get so envy.. I love my red fingernails..~~

p/s: I am who I am..

Nobody know

Nobody know I am here now..I am alone here without them..~~I just keep crying and thinking what should I do next..Totally damn..~~I need to go far from here..Far away from them..As far as I could..I love them but we should reflect ourselves..Our faults..OK..I am not going to blame them and they are not totally right also..I hate this situation~~I had faced this matter many time..~~I am sorry for everything..I know I am not good..I dont need anyone..It is better..No one can understand my feeling..You are not in my shoes..OH..I am so suffering..I dont need help..No..thank..If you all read my blog,please dont ask me what happen to me...And also my peeps,are you happy??OH..I dont care and I dont know..Arghh...~~I wish I am not here anymore and I wish I can back to my childhood time so I am not going to cause difficulty to them..~~I am feelingless,speechless and heartless~~I am just sitting here keep crying~~OH..God..Help me..~~

I am just sit here without anyone know I am here~~I am keep crying and keep writing here~~

Are there any happiness await me??~~I still have a long way to go~~

p/s:I am who I am..